I don't know. What do you think it is?

The doctors still don't know what's causing the problem and the antibiotics aren't helping, so they've ordered a few more tests while I continue the meds just in case. In the midst of the uncertainity, I feel extremely blessed by all of your prayers and expressions of care. I have three prayer shawls in which to surround myself, and people around town remind me that they pray for me daily. It's made all the difference in my ability to cope.

Of course there are a few oddballs in every crowd and my circle of family and friends are no exception. Here are the latest musical additions to my treatment routine as recommended by those trying to be supportive and/or humorous.

Under the category "And you thought radiation humor was in bad taste":

• Up! by Shania Twain, who sings that "it's about as bad as it could be . . . even my skin is acting weird."

• Shimmer by Shawn Mullins who croons about someone who is "born to radiate"
  

• Shiny, Happy People by REM. Is this supposed to be reference to my "glowing" and "radiant" nature?
  

• In the Waiting Line by Zero 7

• Death Comes a Knocking by The Duhks is a powerful song with the line, "death came a knocking on my preacher's door and she bucked her shoes and went down to the Jordan shouting, 'Hallelujah.'"
  

Those commenting on my mental state sent the following:

• Rescue Me by Alarm, who sings "Take me now, I'm so tired."
  

• Breathe by Anna Nalick

• I'm Going Home by the Sacred Harp Singers on the Cold Mountain soundtrack

• Don't Panic by Coldplay

• Collide by Howie Day, who sings "Even the best fall down sometime."

• Born to Run by Emmylou Harris

• Runaway Feeling by The Thorns

For those able to see blessing in the midst of illness:

• Blue Sky by The Allman Brothers

• Johnny's Garden by Stephen Stills

• Holy as a Day is Spent by Carrie Newcomer, who suggests that blessing can be found in the ordinary stuff of life like red lights and washing dishes. I'll add cancer treatment.
  

• Safe in the Arms of Love by Martina McBride

I also had a strange bit of a comedy skit from "BlondeStar"--the "actual" recording of a blonde who locked herself inside her car and calls BlondeStar for assistance. Highly entertaining if you're not blonde but it's hard to explain to the technicians why you're laughing.

I appreciate all the suggestions. I'm certainly expanding my musical tastes, but you can stop sending that twangy, country stuff.

By the way: voting on the funky socks I'll wear stops tomorrow. Vote now.